sayitsalways_me

had my consultation yesterday, i am really excited for how my body is going to look after and how much better i will feel about myself i know this the right descion and way pumped...

i already got approved for a loan from the bank

gonna check out one other doctor because mister dr edwards wants to charge me almost 8,000

i am excited for march and april and then this summer

nicole will be here soon enough and i cant wait for girly time i am taking the weekend off, i am happy that somebody wants to stay with me hahaha. jasmines birthday is gonna be so much fun cause i know her friends will make sure of that. i cant wait for girl times and stripper tits in yo face!!! brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

last night brian and i went and watched "23"
it was good, full of suspense right up until the end normally we figure out those movies really fast but not this one it kept me on my toes until the end, jim carey has really envolved into such an amazing actor...he was both very sexy and humble in this movie. its def one worth your money and i havent felt that way about a movie in a long time


monday is my boobie consultant at 9am they sent me a lil pre pack of all thier info and stuff to fill out before my visit. i am nervous but excitied i cant wait to show them off!

a part of me dies tonight...



r.i.p. my heart

still havdnt heard from the doctors office...


but sean herman is going to the hellscity convention in phoenix late august! i am gonna get my sleeve by the artist that i dreamt about yeah his zombies are amazing! i am nervous though to start a sleeve but i know i can live with it.

its hurts when others say he is better off and i have treated him like shit. its pure ignorance to say that he deserves better.... so i am glad true colors come out in the end.

i know i wasnt a fucking princess but i know i gave it all i could... i am young and make mistakes this was my first way way serious relationship... and yes i could have done things differently. but to sit away and look at it what did i do wrong? i forgave him time and time again for countless lies, i flew out there everytime and flew him out here to visit putting my life on hold for a weekend of his time and never even expected much...our time was squeezed in between his needed hungouts with everyone he saw all the time- but hey i respected that came to love the people he loved...but now for those same people to say i was shitty. i loved him with all of my heart i am sorry that it was not convient and he made the choice to move out here but i was willing to change my life for him and move there but he made that choice... he did what was best for him and those same ignorant people should look now and notice that he is alot different and has changed FOR THE BETTER because of us because of moving and yes i can say because of me. unforutanely being a friend you get to hear the worst more than the best...how many people call up thier friends to just say hey dude umm its swell...no its to bitch about life and complain....

hate is coming over me way too quickly and i dont think i can look at half of those faces again... ignorance is something i look very poorly on and dont tolerate for people who i thought had broader outlooks on life and situations.

maybe this is y a relationship never had worked out on your part... cause its always the girls fault right?

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